Sometimes I get scared of the future,
Sometimes I worry that I won't choose the "right" college.
Sometimes I wonder what God wants me to do with my life.
There are so many options. How can I choose out of thousands of schools? Do I want to go to a Christian college or not? What do I want to study? Is college the best route to wherever I want to go? What do I want to do?
It seems like choosing a college sets the course for the rest of my life. My father is always telling me that I don't have to try to plan out my whole life, just the next step, but that is so hard. Everyone asks me what my plans are, what I want to do with my life, but I have no idea.
Is it so wrong to want to keep everything like it is right now? Yes, I go through struggles, but life seems comparatively easy when I juxtapose it with what could happen.
It seems like everyone else my age has a plan, knows what school they want to attend, what they want to major in, and what career field they will go into.
But I don't. I want to know, but I don't.
And sometimes, I fear and worry and wonder.