I long to run out onto the wet grass and dance with the wind between the raindrops, not caring about getting soaked or muddy. I want to spin around, not caring if I make a fool of myself.
But I stop myself. That's not what I do, I say. That's not the kind of person that I am.
Well, if I'm not, why can't I be that girl? What is holding me back from being her?
I don't know. Maybe it's just that i have always been the calm one,
the cautious one,
the fearful one.
The one who doesn't do crazy things.
The one who always stays with what is safe, accepted, normal.
The one who hates being embarrassed and laughed at.
But who says I always have to be that girl?
Why can't I be both?
I don't know.
All I know is that sometimes, I don't want to be the calm, fearful girl and instead
be the one who dances in the rain.